I lost a sister,her friend.

On my way home from work yesterday, my sister called, she was sobbing, I couldn't hear a thing,so I prayed her be still but couldn't comprehend.
My sis, is very mischievous you see,but I knew this was no prank,it was April 3rd and she had already pulled her April fool stunt on me;So I asked her to be calm,dropped the phone and called her back after a few minutes. She is still sobbing,but now I could hear the words,her ex-school buddy was dead.
Dead? Her childhood friend of 12 years. At first she thought it was a joke,when she was told on sunday then she was called again yesterday. I couldn't torture her with the "wh" questons, I just consoled her the best way I could and had my mom speak to her again,when I got home.

MY Sister's friend.
She was slim,crazy&fun,but was born with a hole in her heart; she couldn't do too much work because of this,but she was fun. I have never met one so young that lived her life without restrain and so much fun.

We lived in the same neighbourhood,she and my sis attended the same secondary school, for a long time they were inseperable.

I remember

When she hid her "bad" report card in my sister's cupboard,mom found it and took it straight to her place.

I remember
When my sis was ill for 2 weeks and couldn't go to school,her friend had told everyone in school my sister had travelled. She came home the evening before my sister was to resume school, to plan her "return". I laughed as I watched them plan,luckily my brother just sent stuff from"jand"(London),so it all worked well with the plan.They went shopping in supermarket that evening for different types of chocolate and candies.

I remember
The funny games they told me they played on their way back from school.

I remember
Her shivering into our house,she had malaria and her mom wasn't home,mum had to treat her,she slept in our house till her mom returned.

I remember
Overhearing,she and sis,scheming to go for a party immadiately after school.

I remember
As they put themselves in trouble and bailed eachother out,if they were stuck,I came to the rescue.

I remember
When she fainted at the carnival,I thought that was "it". I was mad with joy when she woke up smiling.

I remember
As mom,scolded her and sis,over their studies.

I remember it all,the memories are vivid.

She slumped.

I can't believe she's gone,why didn't she go for an operation?
If her parents had said something,we would have raised money,in school,in church,in the estate.
We would have done something.
I'm hurt,I'm sorry if I just sound... hurt.
I don't blame anyone it is too late now,
So what if she had done the operation and was hit by a car,
Died in her sleep,no more what ifs.
She's gone it is hard to accept it but it is true.
I know you are at peace,where you are.
Thank God for the memories we shared.
I know you'll rest in peace,know this too, I LOVE YOU and I'll miss you like you,crazy.